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WOO and booo. [Oct. 5th, 2007|02:02 pm]

so my scales came today, i ordered some, yay!

bad news is i'm still a fatty, 154, i've lost NOTHING!

oh well. best keep going.

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YESYESYES [Oct. 3rd, 2007|06:09 pm]

FINALLY.

i ordered some scales yesterday, they should be here tomorrow or friday!

today i've only eaten half a sandwich, and half a tin of soup, so about 300 calories, and i plan to not go above that. :)

it's nice to feel full after eating so little, it's a very strange feeling that i haven't felt for too long.

i've realised now that instead of fasting, i need to eat, but less and less each day, until im READY for fasting.

i've found if i fast straight away, i just end up binging, and it does me no good, so what's the point?
i might aswell eat something small every day so i don't get to the point where i'm so hungry it's impossible to ignore and i just stuff my face.

i can quite easily do 300 calories a day now so i'm going to continue with that for a while now. girls, soup is the answer!
really it is. just make sure it's something similar to lentil soups with no added sugars etc, one can is sometimes as low as 80 calories, and really fills you!

i'm out for now. :)

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yayx2 [Oct. 2nd, 2007|10:26 pm]

only eaten one meal today!

consisted of lamb and veggies, including colliflower. did have some potatoes, but i only ate half of the meal!

will probably get hungry later, always do at night, but smoking lots of cigarettes and drinking water currently, hopefully that'll help.

I NEED SCALES. ):

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so... hungry... [Oct. 1st, 2007|10:02 pm]

staaarrvviiinnggggg. :(

*sips more water*

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DAMN [Oct. 1st, 2007|06:19 pm]

okay so mother just served up a meal, and i felt seeing as it's nearly 6.30 and ive eaten nothing, and barely drank anything, I'd have a nibble.

the meal consisted of one small chicken breast, no sauce or anything, green beans, and this wierd potatoey mixture with fake cheese sauce.

note, there wasnt much of this potato stuff. it was pre-packed. does anyone know how many calories this meal might have?

i digress. i ate it, and now i feel pretty sick, so im sipping water again and having a few cigarettes.

this IS going to be my only meal of the day. which i guess is okay. tomorrow ill either not eat anything, or do the same, just, one small meal.

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yay [Oct. 1st, 2007|06:01 pm]

i'm doing well everyone.
today i've eaten nothing. ive had one hot lemonwater, and have a two litre bottle by my side. sipping reduces hunger for me.
smoking is helping too.

i'll be posting a thinspo image for all you lovely girlies every time i post now.
if anyone wants to chat, comment one of my posts with your MSN address, I'll add you. 
i just dont like making my MSN public incase anyone i know personally comes across this site.

thanks!

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a friend, a fast! [Sep. 23rd, 2007|05:23 pm]

i'm so happy, i finally found someone to fast with to motivate me!

i'll be doing a three day fast with http://cudicini23.livejournal.com/

we'll be living off water, hot lemon water and milk as a food substitute if we get desperate and i'm excited!

wish us both luck. :)

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failure [Sep. 13th, 2007|03:24 pm]

i've been eating normally since i last posted here, and i hate myself for it.
i saw a photo of me with friends this morning that made me sick, after i had eaten half a bowl of mushy peas and two pieces of bread like the sick fat fuck i am.

i threw up until there was nothing left in me, and it felt glorious. i think i just forgot how wonderful it is to successfully not eat and be sick.

i brought a fresh pouch of tabacco, and there's lemons in the fridge. from now on, my meals will consist of lemon water and cigarettes.

im going to do this.

right now im not hungry. im just. spaced out. i'll post back when im having difficulties, because, you know, as a fatty i feel the urge to eat. 

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disgusting [Sep. 3rd, 2007|01:12 pm]

i'm a fat ugly disgusting pig.

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god [Sep. 1st, 2007|02:16 pm]

i'm so hungry and i don't know why.
it's only been 20 hours since i last ate, but i'm starving. i'm salivating at the thought of even the grossest of foods.

i can't give in.
i know i'm going to.
maybe i should just eat something small, like an apple.
oh god but then i'll want more. i just want a big bowl of chips or a burger.
fuck i need to eeaaaat.

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